I DEPLORE HER

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When did you first notice that you deplore her, darling?

Was it before or after you used other women to desecrate her?

Allan Alexander Amador Cervantes
Allan Alexander Amador Cervantes

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What is Allan angry so about? He’s the one that violated her.

Allan relied on a coherent identity architecture that allowed him to function without internal contradiction.

That architecture included:

  • A self-image as a socially respectable man
  • A sexual secrect that kept his behavior invisible
  • A family and community mirror that reinforced his false image
  • Control over who knew what, when, and in what framing (due to his pathological lying)

This structure did not require him to be honest.
It required him to be unchallenged.

Along comes a woman who not only sets boundaries, but who challenges him. And when he attempts to silence her, she does not disappear. Instead, she speaks more loudly and to a wider audience.

Her narrative did not merely accuse. It re-mapped.

Specifically, it:

  • Named patterns he had not named himself
  • Linked private sexual behavior to public meaning
  • Connected individual acts to family enablement and social shielding
  • Removed his ability to localize the issue as โ€œa misunderstandingโ€

She did not attack one single action.
She attacked the logic that allowed his actions to exist.

That is destabilization.

When Allan’s structure collapsed, he had two choices:

  1. Integrate the information, take responsibility and apologize, and reorganize his identity to prevent future failings
  2. Externalize blame and attempt suppression

His “I deplore her and so do my family and friends” points to the second option.

Now her narrative lives outside his control. She refuses to accept the silence and shame he attempted to delegate to her.

Even if no one reads the website dedicated to his honor:

  • It exists
  • It is indexed
  • It is searchable
  • It contradicts his false persona

That contradiction, which he cannot control despite his carefully crafted public mask, produces obsessive rage: “I deplore her.”

How is the rage helping Allan? The logical step is to ask him. Unfortunately, he is unable to speak truthfully about anything, so any answer he provides will be complete bullshit.