How Allan Raped Me
Me violaste, Allan.
From 2021 to 2025, Allan assured his love for me. He told me he wanted to build a life of memories together. He told me he wanted me by his side. He told me he hadn’t touched another woman since our first time together. He told me exactly what I needed to hear. And I believed him. I opened my legs, my body, my spirit…a faithful partner aligned with a divine pact.
Every word was a lie. Power tilted violently: Allan twisted language, turned affection into a weapon, exploited trust; I offered my body and spirit, defenseless and faithful. He used my devotion to infiltrate my innermost being, transforming my surrender into his violation.
Beyond “Infidelity”
Allan acts as a seducer-pretender, extracting devotion without reciprocity. The word “infidelity” is obscene in its triviality.
It was a violation of the deepest order: Allan deceitfully made his way into my body, using my love, my trust, and my loyalty as tools of entry. Injecting not only betrayal, but also the residue of other women’s energies, their grief, their trauma.
My womb, my blood, my psyche were forced into an unwanted spiritual entanglement.
Unfortunately, I discovered that this was not an isolated incident, but rather behavior that had been going on for years (“This morning I received a message from a woman in Idaho” was one clue I naively ignored on July 29, 2022). I have no idea how much sexual energy from other women I absorbed while Allan repeated to me, “I love you.”
Allan’s lies in bed wedged deep cracks: my trust in my intuition, my confidence in my own body, my ability to discern between love and manipulation.
Now, he calls me crazy.
Rape by Deception
Let’s establish a concrete and simple definition of spiritual rape that everyone can understand. When a man lies to gain access to sexual relations with a woman, her consent is conditional on her trust that his statements are the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Therefore, her consent is completely nullified when sexual access is obtained through lies. This is rape.
Why is this important?
Sweden, Canada, the United Kingdom, and Israel recognize rape by deception as a crime, acknowledging that consent obtained through lies is not consent. UN human rights frameworks (e.g., Article 16 of CEDAW), which emphasize bodily autonomy, confirm the global urgency of this violation. In the United States, states such as California, Idaho, and New York have case law recognizing deception to obtain sex as a crime punishable by imprisonment.
Beyond the law, cultural and religious norms amplify this violation. In Mexican Catholicism, spiritual rape destroys the sacred family, betraying the communal bonds revered in teachings on family and fidelity. In Christianity, it violates the sacred value of women, undermining the trust and dignity central to human relationships.
In Buddhist teachings, it poisons the soul with deception, fracturing the karmic path to liberation. In Mesoamerican indigenous frameworks, it breaks the cosmic harmony that unites life, family, and spirit.
Deception for sexual purposes is a violent crime. It is personal, spiritual, psychological, economic, and communal. It is not simply a matter of a woman feeling betrayed: she is violated under the pretext of love.
You raped me, Allan.
Idaho
“Allan used his cousin in Washington, his cousin’s wife, and his cousin’s CHILD as alibis for his trip to Idaho with Pamela Sue Martin summer 2023.
Before departing from La Paz to Idaho, Allan had a panic attack because I asked him to bring back a wetsuit for me. I proposed that I buy the wetsuit online in the USA and ship it to his cousin’s house in Washington, where he told me he was going on an urgent trip at his “COUSIN’S EXPENSE” to teach his cousin’s son politics for an upcoming exam. The emphasis he placed on the urgency of his cousin’s son’s education cannot be overstated.
Allan rushed into an exhausting flurry of lies about why I could not have a wetsuit delivered to his “cousin’s house” in “Washington,” Look at this chaos:
I don’t know when I’ll be back, and I don’t want the hassle of waiting for the package. I’m going to Washington to help my cousin’s son and see a new place I never saw before, but I’m not sure if I’ll return before or after the package arrives. And I don’t want to bother my cousin with expecting a delivery at his house, that would be too inconvenient. I’ve got so much to think about and don’t need more problems, as unexpected things always pop up and need fixing later. I was just asked to give a lecture at a congress; they can’t give me an exact date yet, and I need to decide if I’ll do it. I will ask Kenno to accept the delivery for you in La Paz through the comic store instead.
His entire narrative was a lie.
The real reason he didn’t want me to send a package to his “cousin’s house” in “Washington” was because he wasn’t going to his cousin’s house in Washington. He was going to Pamela Sue Martin’s house in Idaho!
Nevertheless, Allan had sex with me the night before he visited Pamela, he refused to allow me to take him to the airport, using Christopher & Fernanda as his excuse. And he had sex with me when he returned from Pamela’s house.
Allan wrote me from Pamela’s home the night he arrived there. He wrote me almost every day he was there with her. From her house, he talked to me about our future plans when he returned from his trip. And he telephoned me from her house. I remember the call very well.
Keep in mind, Pamela is 30 years older than Allan! This is truly elderly abuse, as well as rape-by-deception.
At this exact time, Allan’s brother, Kenno, was dying of cancer.
Press Release
In October 2023, Pamela notified the press that Allan is her boyfriend. Meanwhile, her “boyfriend” was maintaining a relationship with me and pursuing a relationship with Jody Waterman.
He’s not your boyfriend. He’s a predator.
Allan is 44. Jody 62; Pamela 72; Carisa 59.
Allan targets elderly American women (a well-known fact in the community, although he does not neglect these women’s young and innocent daughters). He visits them in their hometowns. He posts photos of these trips on social media (without mentioning the women he was with, as shown in these photos). He uses his family as an alibi.
He targets a woman 30 years older + targets a woman 16 years older + targets a woman 20 years younger + targets a minor (16 years old) at the same time.
Allan has also targeted elderly Mexican women over 70, but to a lesser degree.
Serial Killer Ted Bundy Sociopathy
When I review the text messages—the undeniable truth about the severe and prolonged deception over the years—and I compare them to the dated text messages from Allan’s other women, I am truly deeply traumatized.
Allan never told me about Pamela. He allowed someone else to tell me. I am seeking professional expertise to cope with the marks of betrayal trauma and rape.
This is a level of sociopathy like that of serial killer Ted Bundy.
The truth would have been easier
“The unusual twist here is that Allan could have told me the truth. Easily! He had so many opportunities.
Instead of lying to me that night on the Malecon about how he would be busy for a while; instead of telling me he wanted me there with him; instead of saying it was a business associate, a political event, his mother, Kenno, Christopher, his nephews, his cousin in Washington, his cousin’s son, translating for the court, he lost his phone for the weekend, blah, blah, blah….he could have just said, “I met someone else.” And it would have been finished instantly, cleanly with no residial, unresolved trauma.
But that’s not what Allan wanted. He wanted to deceive me. He wanted to trick me. Allan wanted to abuse me…He wanted someone to abuse.
Marked by Truth
You wanted to mark me, Allan. You wanted me to wear your conquest as proof of your manhood. You thought it was funny. You smirked when I highlighted this fact.
But you are the one who is branded for life. Branded as the man who raped with lies. Branded as the man whose legacy is not kittens, or Bible verses, or false displays of tenderness, but a trail of vulnerable women torn apart by betrayal, communities destabilized by your duplicity.
And now the truth remains without apology, without hesitation. You raped me, Allan. You raped me through years of deception. And I will not allow the world to call it anything else.
What’s going on?
Something we don’t want to address. But we must. Everyone asks the same damn question: What the hell does this weird guy have going for him? Even Allan himself agrees, he’s not smart. Lennie Small IQ. Acne craters. Short. Illegitimate child. No money (though he lies about that too). Poor sense of personal boundaries. Clearly a pathological liar.
He must be good in bed! No. Absolutely not. A disgrace to all men on Earth. When I say bad, I mean clumsy like a 12-year-old.
So what is it? He takes advantage of the vulnerable:
- 1) He focuses on elderly women. Divorced, single mothers. One has disabilities. Vulnerable.
- 2) One of the people mentioned in this article is a minor. Vulnerable.
- 3) One of the women mentioned on this page is the daughter of an elderly 74 year old woman whom he pursued in April 2024 before cruelly discarding her. Both vulnerable.
- 4) One of the women with whom he developed an sexually charged public online relationship with: Same. An elderly single American mother.
It’s all about showering the vulnerable with [fake] love, something he’s very good at.
Image Management
Allan presents himself as a saint online, when in reality he is the desecrator of sacred bonds, the destroyer of trust, the coward who hurts women and hides behind holy words.